omaha NE

esma:Hello?
Dad: I need you to book your brother a Bus Trip to Omaha Ne...
Esma: speechless....
Dad: I'll send you the money if thats what your worried about.
Esma: for when?
Dad: This week...
Esma: Fri then.
Dad: uhmm no i was thinking sooner
Esma: ugh.... okay.
dad: What's wrong?
Esma:I just dont want him to leave, i know its just a mini vacation but i worry for my boy...
Dad: Its gonna be okay.
Esma: huh yeah.


I know i should be happy that my brother is going out to see my dad but I'm afraid im not. Im scared. My fears are taking over the best of me. I know i shouldnt but i guess Im just afraid. This is normal for me now. I tend to be very scared of little things. It just brings me back to my mom dilemma. This was no trip, this was me taking her to work . and wham... she's gone. I'm just afraid I'll never see my brother again. ... The fact that he is my friend and i will feel lonely tears my heart apart. I've never felt like this.My day is now filled with sadness and tears would roll down my cheeks but i am holding them in since I am currently at work ... I guess i could do is wish for the best... And know that god and my mom will watch over him on his trip. god Bless him...



love,
esma...